“Still the flowers come and the candles and the meals that no longer fit in our fridge. A week later, two. I feel guilty, teary, swamped; don’t want to explain, talk, but it’s the expected transaction here.” WITH HER FINAL ACT, Elayn has altered my future. She had been attempting to do this since my teenage years, to mould me into something I didn’t want to be. It was easy for so long to shake her intentions off; I was wilful, stubborn, strong; knew who I wanted to be and was able to veer along my own, very particular path. But finally, with this, she’s got me. She has crushed me.
Wanting, now, to shed people, complexity, the cram of chatter and especially questions, so many questions about what happened.…
